Thursday, April 14, 2011
Deep Thoughts of the Day
So if you're strong enough to survive but not strong enough to deal how strong are you really? I mean if you survive but you're not really not living what was the point? Would it have been better to have laid down and died? Is it like cutting off your nose to spite your face or cutting off your ears to prove a point. You did it but what is it going to change? What was the point? I just can't help keep wondering if your going to fight to survive only to lay down and lay it all to vain.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Wow...October
That seems like a LOOONG time ago. When looking back at blog quite honestly I'm just surprised how much I was actually posting. Christmas break was amazing the only part was when I made myself leave. :( On the bright side, I am moving there for real about a month after school gets out! SOOOOOO not soon enough...Before I get there though I'll be going back to Montana which I am UBER excited about. :D
In other news I am pretty sure that I am going to Johnson. I think I needed time off to come to terms with the fact that counseling is not actually 'the dark side of the force' as my roomie likes to say. She's planning on getting the same degree. My roomie this semester is pretty awesomeness. She's planning on going there. I'm planning on taking a year off. I hate it here and I love it at Johnson. I really hate Florida too so I think I AT THE LEAST need to go somewhere neutral and figure out what I really want to do. The southeast of this continental country is not quite agreeable to clear thinking with a clear head, too many influences. My roommate's mom has offered to pick me up from airports and to hold stuff for me at their place. which is exciting. They really want me to take a semester off. I admit my reason is really stupid but quite honestly I'm planning on taking a year off because I don't want to have a fourth college birthday. I've actually made 'plans' with my cousin to stay up all night watching movies because drinking isn't fun. :) I LOVE my family. So its probably stupid but I love it there so much I can't really see myself regretting. I'm going to go ahead and apply for enrollment for next spring but am probably going to tell them I want to push it back to the following fall just in case I change my mind. I just need some high school information to finish my application.
In sad news I found out that a friend who is very near and dear to my heart was diagnosed as having Grade 4 Glioblastoma. A VERY BAD brain tumor and its quite possible he only has 2 to 3 years left. That was very hard for me to read today. I admit I've been scared since he started getting seizures last October and being the paranoid person I am I never really thought it could be this bad. Pray for him please.
To end this on an up note yarn:
^Finished Product: she also taught me to make cables^
^Baby hat: first baby anything^
In other news I am pretty sure that I am going to Johnson. I think I needed time off to come to terms with the fact that counseling is not actually 'the dark side of the force' as my roomie likes to say. She's planning on getting the same degree. My roomie this semester is pretty awesomeness. She's planning on going there. I'm planning on taking a year off. I hate it here and I love it at Johnson. I really hate Florida too so I think I AT THE LEAST need to go somewhere neutral and figure out what I really want to do. The southeast of this continental country is not quite agreeable to clear thinking with a clear head, too many influences. My roommate's mom has offered to pick me up from airports and to hold stuff for me at their place. which is exciting. They really want me to take a semester off. I admit my reason is really stupid but quite honestly I'm planning on taking a year off because I don't want to have a fourth college birthday. I've actually made 'plans' with my cousin to stay up all night watching movies because drinking isn't fun. :) I LOVE my family. So its probably stupid but I love it there so much I can't really see myself regretting. I'm going to go ahead and apply for enrollment for next spring but am probably going to tell them I want to push it back to the following fall just in case I change my mind. I just need some high school information to finish my application.
In sad news I found out that a friend who is very near and dear to my heart was diagnosed as having Grade 4 Glioblastoma. A VERY BAD brain tumor and its quite possible he only has 2 to 3 years left. That was very hard for me to read today. I admit I've been scared since he started getting seizures last October and being the paranoid person I am I never really thought it could be this bad. Pray for him please.
To end this on an up note yarn:
^My cousin taught me to knit in the round over break ^
^Finished Product: she also taught me to make cables^
^Baby hat: first baby anything^
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